My fingers are on the keyboard, let's see what they type...

Nervous as fuck. I've been studying like a madman for school. I want to whoop this things ass. I can't remember being so nervous before. Trying to figure out if I should just start driving tonight, cause I don't know if I'm going to be able to sleep.

Went to the free clinic today, they were closed. Fuckers.

Went to Jon's, he wasn't there. His truck was, he wasn't. It was very odd.

Sucessfully managed to alienate everyone I know, except for Matt and Nori, I think. I've always said I'd make a good father, I'm going to have to change that. I'm going to say, "I'll make a good father, once I become more stable; financially and emotionally." Gotta get some insurance, then a psychiatrist.

Saw Ann. Funny, all the shit I've pulled, all the crazyness and all the different emotional states I've been through, she's been more than willing to listen to me with an open ear. When I grow up, I wanna be just like her.

Been walking a lot, thinking. Trying to get things under control in my head. I keep feeling like I'm gonna die. Can't really explain it, but I've got this feeling that I'm not supposed to make it back here.