DEAD!!!!

My biological grandma died. I'm not sad though, I met her like, once. It was funny, one day mom decided that she wanted to meet her birth parents, she called a private detective, and eventually he gave us a phone number to call. That was probably the craziest phone call I've ever been witness to. Imagine calling a woman and saying, "Hi, you don't know me, but I'm the daughter you gave up 40 years ago." because that's what happened. All the other daughters were over there (mom has 3 sisters) and my bio. grandma had to tell them all right then and there that they all had another sister they never knew about. They were pissed.

I wonder if suicide is really scary? If you put a gun to your head and pull the trigger, does everything go blank? Do you still feel pain for a little bit? If you don't blow enough of your brains out, do you get retarded until you die? These are questions that keep me awake at night.

Oh yeah, Jessica makes me happy.

Dave